Never been first

I am having one of my rare melancholy moods where the tears just have to fall.

Sometimes it feels that I have never been anyone’s first choice.

Not in my youth.

Not in my marriage.

Not now.

Definitely not at this moment.

At this moment, I feel as if some of the pain just has to spill out in the form of tears just so I will have enough room to add more pain.

I am just glad that my children will forever know that there was at least one person who almost always put them first.

Ah, well, still have one more child to finish raising.

Off to fake it till I make it.

We’ll just mark this off as a bout of post menstrual depression….

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Dell Latitude e6410

I recently purchased a Dell Latitude E6410 Notebook
off Ebay and after my squeal of joy when my new baby arrived, I found myself uber frustrated because it would not connect to my home wifi.

Heck, it wouldn’t even acknowledge that my home network even existed.

And since I purchased this for work, not being wifi ready was unacceptable.

But I am pleased to tell you after 2 days of research (and multiple confusing attempts to download the drivers directly from, I finally found a solution to my problem.

And it so simple…

I am sure that there are other ways to do this but I just lucked on my way via trial and error and many a lost follicle of hair…

First, I went to Start.

Then I typed in the words Device Manager.

Now, the instructions that I was reading on the Dell forums told me to go to Network (mine says Network Adapter) and then right click on DW1520 Wireless-N WLAN Half-Mini Card but I didn’t have that anywhere to be found on my list.

However, there where three devices under Other Devices that had a with an exclamation point (at least, that is what it looks like to me) so, with my laptop plugged directly into my router with an ethernet card, I proceeded to update each of the drivers.

Two of them were complete duds but lo-and-behold, with that last one, all of the wifi connections that were available around suddenly appeared on my screen.


And I am writing this fully connected to my home wifi network and chilling in my bed while watching Parenthood on on Netflix.

I hope this helps the next person searching the web for a solution to this problem.

Please don’t ask me any questions because I do not know what I am doing and the only computer that I am willing to blow up in frustration is my own.

Good Luck and I will continue this notebook review of my Dell Latitude as I find more things to love (or hate).



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Tmobile Scores with me

I <3 Tmobile.

Almost everyone I know is with Tmobile.

In fact, I only have one person in my circle who is not with Tmobile (luvs ya anyway, J!).

I actually smirk when I hear people talking about staying off their data plan because if they go over, the bill will skyrocket…

Yeah, Tmobile just drops you down to a slower throttle.

No biggee.

You still have unlimited data.

Or you could pay a couple bucks more and get my gigabytes.

I also love that I have four lines on the Tmobile family plan for only $100.

Ok, so it comes in at about $150 but that is because I financed two phones and I have the Tmobile Jump! insurance on both of them.

Still cheaper than if I had stayed prepaid at $50/line.

Ok, anyway, I digress and ramble.

This morning, whilst procrastinating on doing Leapforce, I did a search for the Samsung Galaxy s6 and came across articles discussing Tmobile’s new Score program.

Basically, you add $5 month per line to your bill and then pay your bill on time, every time.

In 6 months , the entry level phone (ie, Alcatel One Touch Evolve 2) will be free.

After 12 months of on time payments, you are eligible for exclusive discount prices on every phone.

The plan is open to both Tmobile postpaid and Tmobile prepaid customers (with the exceptions of Pay As You Go and Pay By The Day).

(I love the fact that Tmobile doesn’t treat its prepaid customers with callous disregard.)

It is even available if you bring your own device.

In addition, the discount is guaranteed to be equal to or greater than the $60/year cost (12 months x $5/month).

Anyway, I am mostly writing this post for my family and friends who are either already with Tmobile and may be considering upgrading their phone or who may be considering jumping on board my absolute favorite cell phone company.

Hopefully, I got all of this right. I highly recommend contacting Tmobile support if you have any questions.

None of the links take you directly to where you add Score! and other services but I clicked around and found it.

I am off to login into mytmobile to add this to my account.

Click on the phone number that you would like to add Score!.

Click Change Services.

Add or delete the services that you are interested in and click Next.

Review. Confirm. Done.

Yeah, its a bummer but you have to do this for each individual line.


Can’t have everything! Lol.


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Fast Fix to Roku XS connection error

Last week, I purchased a used Roku 2 XS off ebay for about $50 for myself my daughter and I couldn’t get it to connect to my wireless network.

Lo and behold, I found the answer rather quickly on Let’s Talk Tech (  Apologies but my hyperlink decided to be a turd today and I can’t remember how to hyperlink off the top of my head right now.

Press the Home Button rapidly 5 times.

Then the forward key.

The Play button.

The rewind key.

The Play button again. 

And the forward key again.

If you do this correctly, it takes you to a super secret Roku screen.

Scroll down and click Disable network ping.

That’s it! 

After I did that, I was good to go with no issues.

If you still have issues, there is a second option involving updating your software but I had already used my cell as a hotspot to do that.

If you still have questions, I recommend leaving them on Let’s Talk Tech ’cause this chick here can’t help ya…

Good Luck and Happy Streaming,




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Where’d the pretty red go?

YouWish Wishlist Builder for Android

My pretty red custom theme is (hopefully) only temporarily gone.

After updating wordpress and atahualpa, everything below the header just disappeared.

So, I had to chose between having my pretty theme or having the posts and pages viewable.

Hopefully, this is only a temporary problem.

I miss my pretty red theme.

Not to mention the countless hours that I spent getting it to look just so…


But this chick in green is pretty sassy…

…wonder if the have her in red….or purple…


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Elena can go on Vampire Diaries

My friend told me that Elena (Nina Dobrev) was thinking of leaving Vampire Diaries apparently for a real life love affair gone wrong with Damon (Ian Somerhalder) and my big response was….~shrug~…

Elena is my least favorite of the female actresses on the show (Bonnie (Kat Grahambeing numero uno, then Caroline (Candice Accola)).

In fact, I have always said that Bonnie should be with Damon since the very beginning. And the actress sure has the chops to step up to the lead.

And now I am rooting for Caroline and Stephen (why have I never seen this before?!?!).

I find Elena’s character wimpy and reminiscent of the “damsel in distress” of bygone television eras.

Even now, as a big bad vamp in her own right and she is just…eh….

The fact that she runs right to the danger before swooning “oh, Damon, saaaaaavvvvveee me” causes the eyes to roll to the back of my head every time.

To put it bluntly, she is Sookie-light (True Blood reference to the unimformed) and that was one lead character that I really wanted killed off her own show.

So, Elena, please feel free to carry your tender feelings on over to The Originals or make another movie that I have never even heard of….or something…anything…maybe even beg the writers to make your character less of a useless characture and more of a true bad-ass in her own right.

Meanwhile, I am going to yell at Ian for a minute.

Ya know I love ya, boo…but playing these childish games of pitting one woman against another…yeah, that’s beneath you, babe.

It is seriously lowering your stock, dude.

Brad Pitt, the most handsome man in the world, no longer makes my heart go pitter pat because of the way he treated ending his relationship with Jennifer Aniston.

I’m just sayin….


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How can my dog not be bald?

This is a random post, but have you ever swept the floor and picked up so much fur that you wonder why your pet is not bald?

Told you it was random. Lol.

But if I had took a picture of the pile of fur before I dumped it in the bin, you might have wondered too.

I really need to get better at taking photos for this blogging thing.

Or maybe I just didn’t want you too see the, uh, untidy, status of my house.

Meanwhile, her is a photo of HRH sleeping.

See, she still has plenty of fur to drop around my house at her leisure.


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How I Met Your Mother: The End, The Alternate, and Robin Sparkles

Thanks to Amazon Prime (or Netflix, if you prefer), I have finally watched the How I Met Your Mother finale.

I must join the horde of fanaddicts who abhorred the How I Met Your Mother ending.

(Yellow Umbrella > Blue French Horn)

I was ok with them killing of The Mother.

That could have been the sad series finale twist.

Or maybe Ted telling his kids that he was dying too.

But nah…

They had to piss me off by breaking up Robin and Barney.

When in (my) reality, they should have become some sort of power couple.

And I hated that Ted went running back to Robin.

It pretty much nullified his relationship with The Mother.

After all, he was moving to Chicago because his best friend was marrying the love of his life.

So maybe he just settled for The Mother because she was good enough since he couldn’t have Robin.

Boo! Hiss!! No!!!

I hated that Robin regressed back to a single-minded career woman living alone with her dogs until her Prince (Ted) comes to rescue her.

I am so sick of strong women always ending up alone on tv shows.

(Reba, anybody?!?!)

I did love that Barney fell in love with his daughter but it should have been Robin’s daughter too.

Barney (and apparently Robin too) has enough money to invest in experimental treatments to get her pregnant.

Or they could have had a surrogate.

Or adopted.


Nevertheless,  I bid faretheewell to Robin Scherbatsky (Jacoba Francisca Maria “Cobie” Smulders), Lily Aldrin (Alyson Lee Hannigan), Barney Stinson (Neil Patrick Harris), Marshall Eriksen (Jason Jordan Segel), and Theodore Evelyn “Ted” Mosby (Josh T. Radnor).

And though I hardly knew you, R.I.P. Tracy McConnell (aka The Mother, Cristin Milioti).

 P.S.  Here is the alternate HIMYM finale.

Not nearly as polished as the real finale but a much more satisfying resolution.

And for us Robin Sparkles fans…Sing it again, Coby!

Ok, her voice was really bad so that may be why this scene was deleted.

And they solved the mystery of the pineapple…

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Veronica Mars: The Show, The Movie, The Book

A long time ago, we use to be friends, Roni Mars and I…

…until the station pulled the plug and left me hankering for a real resolution to the series.

How I missed that there was a 3rd season I don’t know.

But I rectified that with a quickness when I found out that I could watch full episodes of the Veronica Mars TV show online on Amazon Prime.

I began to stream Veronica Mars Season 1 through Season 3 immediately and found myself disappointed that there was not a Season 4.

(Random thought, but did anyone else hate what they did with the Veronica Mars We Use To Be Friends theme song in Season 3?!?)

Enter the Veronica Mars kickstarter program and the crowdfunding of a Veronica Mars movie.

I was super stoked when I first watched the Veronica Mar trailer on Youtube.

I was satisfied with the Veronica Mars Movie

I say satisfied because, omg, it left me with because it left me with so many new questions.

First off, I had to do an imdb Veronica Mars search to refresh my memory regarding Carrie Bishop.

The original actress was Leighton Meester (of Blair Waldorf from Gossip Girl fame) but was portrayed by an unknown Andrea Estella in the movie.

No wonder I didn’t remember.

Ok, first thing that seriously bothered me is why Wallace is working at the school as a coach.

After making such a big deal about Wallace studying mechanical engineering or whatever it was all throughout Season 3, why isn’t he working in that field?!?

And what is going to happen to the Kane’s. How’s Duncan doing on the run with the baby (the Kane security guy knows where he is or, at least, was the last one seen in contact with him after he did the hit on Aaron Echols). Did Veronica really let it go about Jake Kane being the one to release her sex tape? Why didn’t Weevil finger Celeste Kane as the one who shot him?

Speaking of Weevil, is he back in the gang for good or will he go back to being daddy goody two shoes with his wife and kid.

Is Dick Casablanca really on prescription weed? Can’t really blame the guy after all that he has been through. He personified tears of a clown if you ask me. Or, to be more modern, fake it til you make it. His slogan is now wake, bake, fake, and make.

BTW, did you know that you can catch Dick Casablanca, PI on Play It Again, Dick.

Are they just going to leave the murder of Deputy Sacks unresolved?

Will Keith Mars become Sheriff again?

(Speaking of Keith, I really miss Backup. I guess 10 years would have been unreasonable for them to have the same dog. ~sigh~)

Why didn’t Stosh “Piz” Piznarski fight more for Veronica after being together almost 9 years. And why was she justing meeting his parents now?

What happened to Wallace’s Mom and Brother?

And we all know that Veronica decided to stay in Neptune but will she be a lawyer, a PI, or a conglomeration of the two? Will she work with her dad or branch of on her own?

Apparently fellow Marshmallows, there is a Veronica Mars book that takes off just where the movie ends.

And it is written by Veronica Mars show creater Rob Thomas.

No fan fiction here! Woo Hoo!!!

Veronica Mars: An Original Mystery by Rob Thomas: The Thousand-Dollar Tan Line

Ten years after graduating from high school in Neptune, California, Veronica Mars is back in the land of sun, sand, crime, and corruption. She’s traded in her law degree for her old private investigating license, struggling to keep Mars Investigations afloat on the scant cash earned by catching cheating spouses until she can score her first big case.

Now it’s spring break, and college students descend on Neptune, transforming the beaches and boardwalks into a frenzied, week-long rave. When a girl disappears from a party, Veronica is called in to investigate. But this is no simple missing person’s case; the house the girl vanished from belongs to a man with serious criminal ties, and soon Veronica is plunged into a dangerous underworld of drugs and organized crime. And when a major break in the investigation has a shocking connection to Veronica’s past, the case hits closer to home than she ever imagined.

I gots ta have it!!! Lol.

I have a google alert to see if there is ever going to be a Season 4 or another Veronica Mars movie.

So far, nothing concrete yet.

Hurry up already!!

We Marshmallows are waiting!

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Official Trailer of Fifty Shades of Grey

Let me preface this by saying that I have yet to read even a single sentence of the 50 Shades of Gray trilogy of books.

So when I clicked on this link for the trailer of the movie, I was so less than impressed.

The woman in the trailer looked more beaten down than curious or intrigued.

And the man…I guess the purpose was to make him come across as a monster?!?!

Then I noticed that the date on the trailer was April 5, 2013 and despite it saying that it was the official trailer, perhaps it was not.

The next link for the movie Fifty Shades of Grey was a bit more intriguing to me.

While I may not ever watch the movie, at least this trailer didn’t repulse and repel me.

The female is a much softer, realistic “non-Hollywood” typical type.

The male has eyes that say “if you would just accept me as I am, I could love you forever”.

…and, of course, I find myself debating whether the Beyonce song actually matches the theme or the movie or not.

Guess time will tell.

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